Dreading the New Year Doesn’t Mean You’re Failing

This episode is not about fresh starts, resolutions, or manifesting a better year.

It’s for the people who feel heavy, uneasy, or scared as the year changes.

I’m sharing honestly about what the end of the year felt like for me when my life didn’t feel safe—when I was still inside emotionally abusive relationships, even though I didn’t have that language yet. I talk about the dread that replaced reflection, the exhaustion of constant self-editing, the panic attacks, the private crying, the way I negotiated my own needs just to keep the peace.

There are no tidy lessons here. This episode isn’t meant to inspire you to do more or be better.

We talk about:

• Why New Year’s can feel threatening instead of hopeful when your life has felt unpredictable or unsafe
• How emotional abuse intensifies during holidays and end-of-year reflection
• The slow realization of “I can’t keep living like this” and why that isn’t failure
• Trauma bonds, self-doubt, and the moment your body starts telling the truth
• Why hope doesn’t have to be loud to be real

If the bravest thing you can do right now is stop gaslighting yourself, this episode is for you.